Thursday, May 26, 2005


Originally uploaded by abitwicked.

Or maybe I follow them around ... since they are cute and smell quite good.

same slaves

same slaves
Originally uploaded by abitwicked.

They follow me around

Me and my slaves

Originally uploaded by abitwicked.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Three things...

Three screen names that you have had: Wicked
Three things you like about your self: I can keep a secret, im tolerant, im funny
Three things you don't like about your self: I tend to procrastinate, i find it difficult to break my routines, i worry too much sometimes
Three parts of your heritage: Spanish and indian (mexican natives)
Three things that scare you: disapointment, death, old age
Three of your everyday essentials: water, vegetables and a reminder that im loved.
Three things you are wearing right now: black linen pants, grey logo t-shirt ("Nice from now on"... haha as if...)
Three of your favorie songs: Promenade (u2), Angels (robbie williams), Depende (Jarabe de Palo)
Three new things you want to try in the next 12 months: yoga, low carb diet, changing my daily routine (dont let it be static)
Three things I want in a relationship: passion, trust, fun
Two truths and a lie: my finances are usually under control, my life is perfect most of the time, i cant be on a diet
Three things you can't do without: love, internet, chocolate chip cookies.
Three places you want to go on vacation: Scandinavia, South America, China.
Three things you just can't do: stop worrying, go to bed before 1 am (which makes waking up on time quite difficult), let go of complicated situations.
Three kids names: Ainoha, Diego, Josemaria
Three things you want to do before you die: love and not worry, have a baby/family, travel around the world
Three Celeb crushes: Jude Law, Robbie Williams, Joaquin Phoenix
Three people you want to know these things about: Floatingwild, Aylin, and i would definitely love if Paranoid Android would do this, since im his fan and all...

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

My pregnant friends

Right now, three friends of mine are pregnant. More or less with 5-7 months. The three of them will have girls. One of them already has a kid and the other two will experience the "joys" of motherhood soon.

This whole pregnancy experience is supposed to be a trip. In whatever sense you want to take it. I have never been pregnant so i dont know what it feels like. I can only give you my outside and ignorant opinion about the subject.

I can see now this whole thing with a renewed vision... First of all, not all pregnant women look as beautiful. And why should they, they are experiencing changes in their bodies and feeling not great all of the time. I have seen women that look just gorgeous when they are expecting, but i bet they dont feel as good all of the time.

I decided to post about this since i saw Brooke Shields in a show where she talked about what a bad experience her giving birth to her firstborn was, and how bad she had it with baby blues. and short after that i talked to one of my pregnant friends and she said she was convinced that she loved the baby inside of her but that at this time her life was hell, since she is around 6 months pregnant and still feels like crap. And that is just being pregnant. When you are ready for delivery ... that is something else... aaggh

The satisfaction has to be worth it. And it definitely has to be since most of the women i know have been pregnant at least twice...

Friday, May 13, 2005

Teary Friday


The changing of sunlight to moonlight
Reflections of my life, oh, how they fill my eyes
The greetings of people in trouble
Reflections of my life, oh, how they fill my mind

All my sorrows, sad tomorrows
Take me back to my own home
All my cryings (all my cryings), feel i'm dying, dying
Take me back to my own home (oh i'm going home)

I'm changing, arranging, I'm changing
I'm changing everything, ah, everything around me
The world is a bad place, a bad place
A terrible place to live, oh, but i don't wanna die

All my sorrows, sad tomorrows
Take me back to my own home
All my cryings (all my cryings), feel i'm dying, dying
Take me back to my own home (oh i'm going home)

Its friday, my favourite day of the week and i feel so sad... geez.. i dont even want to think about how this will affect my next monday

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Oh mothers day...

Everyone HAS a Mother. Present or absent but one's mother is a fact. My mother is still here, alive. Thank God, although i must admit i think differently when she gets on my nerves, or when i get on hers. I dont know what i would do if she wasnt around. My life would definitely be lacking of an important element.

We are way too alike i guess. And like poles repel. That is a fact as well.

I have had this conversation with most of my girlfriends and we have come to the conclusion that the things you hate the most about your mom are the things that you end up doing as you grow older.

I dont have kids. And honest to God i dont feel the urge to have them. Of course i want kids at some point of my life, but not now... am i selfish? maybe.. who knows. i know i would make a good mother though, since i have had a good example.

We have become closer with time. I know she loves me, and wants a perfect life for me, but she thinks i enjoy looking for alternate paths and not walking by the right one. But she respects and tolerates what i do... and after all, i think she has started to let go... she has decided to give me the benefit of the doubt... and see how all the years of advice and example and teachings and all turn out.

I love her dearly. She is so much fun desguized in a serious face. I have way more nice things to remember about her, than i have bad. I definitely want to have this.

  • she can make the sound of Flipper the dolphin
  • she used to spin me (in a dancing manner) all the way from swimming class home
  • she would put nice stuff in my hair, with little duckies and bears, and would make my pony tails curly, with only the use of her finger
  • she would carefully cut and wrap a half of a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for me to take to school, since i wouldnt eat a complete one
  • she tickles hard and laughs herself while doing it
  • she would be the first mom to be outside the school door to pick me up, since i would cry my heart out if she wasnt
  • she told me a couple of days ago im "gorgeous". she had never said it before :)
  • she smells good
  • she still comes with me to the doctor if i ask her too
  • she drinks martinis and gets so drunk after the first one haha
  • i caught her one time tryng to get our cat's paws toghether so they would pray together
  • she is already knitting baby stuff for my brother's baby, and has bought a crib alreadyto have at home

i could go on and on, now that ive got started... but im getting way too sentimental and ive decided to take Mr Underhill's advice on long posts.

I DO LOVE MY MOM... but didnt get her any gifts for mother's day though.

Thursday, May 05, 2005

If i could be

This is courtesy of AVA...

What follows is a list of different occupations. You must select at least five of them. You may add more if you like to your list before you pass it on (after you select five of the items as it was passed to you).

Of the five you selected, you are to finish each phrase with what you would do as a member of that profession. Then pass it on to three other bloggers.

Here's that list:
If I could be a scientist... If I could be a farmer...If I could be a musician...
If I could be a doctor...If I could be a painter... If I could be a gardener...
If I could be a missionary... If I could be a chef...If I could be an architect...
If I could be a linguist...If I could be a psychologist... If I could be a librarian...
If I could be an athlete... If I could be a lawyer...If I could be an innkeeper...
If I could be a professor...If I could be a writer... If I could be a backup dancer...
If I could be a llama-rider... If I could be a bonnie pirate...If I could be a midget stripper...
If I could be a proctologist...If I could be a TV-Chat Show host... If I could be an actor...
If I could be a judge... If I could be a Jedi...If I could be a mob boss...
If I could be a backup singer .....If I could be a CEO... If I could be a movie reviewer ....
If I could be a candy striper... If I could taste test chocolate...

I chose these:

IF I COULD TASTE TEST CHOCOLATE... i would become as fat as Ana Nichole Smith used to be but i wouldnt mind that much because... hey, it my job...!

IF I COULD BE A MOB BOSS... i would speak italian fluently, have a whole bunch of italian men doing as i wish, eat pasta and pizza every day and would keep an amazing amount of booze at home. I would also spend my nights gambling.. and winning... or my guys would take care of that.

IF I COULD BE A LLAMA-RIDER... i would try and make it an olympic sport, and would make it fashionable... hey have you riden your llama today? hey look at that new llama breed? i would have a ranch full of llamas in Peru.

IF I COULD BE A JEDI... i would be so amuzed with the spade and stuff and would pet and hug Yoda, since hes so cute.

IF I COULD BE A MOVIE REVIEWER... i would get free cinema tickets for me and my friends.

I'm passing this to: DAVE, FLOATINGWILD and TARA

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

As I Mature

THIS MADE ME LAUGH. (i got it by email)

I've learned that you can not make someone love you
All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I've learned that no matter how much i care,
some people are just assholes.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust
and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about
fifteen minutes. After that you'd better have a big willy or huge boobs.

I've learned that you shouldnt compare yourself to others
- they are more screwed up than you think.

I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after
you think you are finished.

I've learned we are responsible of what we do,
unless we are celebrities.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first,
the passion fades, and there had better be a lot of money to take its place!

I've learned that 99% of the time when someting is not working in your house,
one of your kids did it.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life
are taken from you too soon, and all the less important ones just never go away.

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

No worries

I got totally stressed out yesterday by 6 pm... Of course it was Monday and you know how I hate mondays, and i have not been able to sleep that much either... so, i guess all of what i consider my worries seemed bigger and were haunting me every single minute since the moment i got up.

I decided to get my ipod, sweat pants, tennis shoes and go for a walk. The weather has been crappy lately. The heat can melt a small puppy if left outside (beware Velvetina, beware...). But yesterday at 7 the weather was awesome, windy and the sun was still up but didnt burn anymore... so my mood started to change.

I am (i think id rather say was) not the jogging/walking kind of girl... i am more into spinning and stuff, but lately it has been like a therapy for me. I get totally disconected. I start thinking about my worries and end up forgetting all about them and finding joy in simpler- smaller things.

Yesterday, a car passed by me. In the passenger's seat a boy about 3 or 4, his window was open and the wind hit him in the face. His small head was facing outside. His eyes were closed, his mouth a smile. I can describe that face like satisfaction; No worries; Pure joy and fun; A moment to be enjoyed. And just by looking at him (it must have been like 3 seconds, at the most) i smiled as well. Because i know what it feels like. I had the opportunity to feel like that not only as a child (i used to think that all children had this all of the time, now i know i was lucky :( ), but in the last couple of months, several times.

I usually take for granted things that should make my face look like that boy's, im trying not to:
  1. im healthy, my eyes have been sore for a while but i can see (colors)
  2. i have people who love me and i love a bunch of people
  3. i have great music on my ipod
  4. i have the start of a good tan
  5. i recieve roses every morning
  6. my cat and dog crave for my attention (yes, my cat has been loving me a lot lately... )
  7. my skin and hair are pretty
  8. i discovered this place where they sell the best frozen yougurt ever
  9. i can see the moon from my window almost evey night
  10. my boyfriend calls me more than once everyday and it still makes me (and him) happy
  11. i havent lost my modjo (with men)
  12. i have great travel plans for next year, with awesome company
  13. my brother is going to have a baby
  14. i just spent an awesome weekend
  15. i have the feeling im gonna win the lotto soon

just writing this small list makes me smile...